Fuck I'm So Frustrated

I'm just so frustrated and I have to write it down somewhere. I can't communicate this shit to anyone as they just don't understand. The only reason I'm still going and haven't offed myself yet is my daughter. I have to keep it together for her. But I don't know if I can. First of all...relationships. FUCK!!! What the fuck is wrong with people? I'm quite sure I'm not hideous. I'm smart, sweet, funny, monogamous, etc etc. So why does no one except the crazy asshole I last married want me? Why am I always the rebound girl then it's "oh you have a kid" "oh, I'm just not ready for a relationship" "oh, you have a crazy ex" all things which I come out and say right in the beginning, it's not like it was a fucking secret. Then I meet this amazing guy, who loves me for who I am and who will do anything for me. And I just can't make myself love him. It actually makes me cry every time I think about it. He is SUCH a great guy! But the stupid things really get to me; he snores horribly, his breath really stinks and tastes bad, he has no bank account, no drivers license, no car. His schedule sucks balls. His living situation sucks balls. He doesn't understand things the way I do. He goes out of PT all the time. He forgets things easily and falls asleep all the time. He's not on lines at all and can't seem to make that go right. Am I really shallow? Or are those good reasons not to be in a relationship with someone? I don't want to try and then find myself hating him. I would much rather just be best friends, but it is really hard to have a best friend that's a guy. Whatever. Then there's Mike King. He seems perfect. But he just wants to be friends. WHY??? And Brian Miller, he seems pretty perfect too, but he just wants to be friends. WHY??? My list of possibilities is very short and I am unwilling to date another non-Scientologist, so I'm kinda screwed...